Tears

So my family is in the midst of prayer. My body can't handle breaking down, but my heart is broken for the Sorviks. Tomorrow, er, today, at 1230 to 100 we are praying that josh's back is restored and that God heals him, and that there's no surgery needed, and that he can walk again.

Tonight i was finally able to cry to God. It took a fantastic roommate and a sad sad movie, but it felt so good to be so raw. 

Jesus' power and love have been so overwhelming in a way that i cannot and will not describe. I cannot wait to go Home. I know heaven feels bajillion times more amazing then here, but even if i had this feeling right now, forever, i would take it, knowing it was the love of my Savior. No questions asked. ok, maybe some, but only because i have so many.

Sleep evades me while i write this... but another prayer of mine is that we are able to share josh's story with others. to be able to go to people and say he is HEALED! my heart leaps in joy in the prospects of sharing God's love. May He keep this emotion close to my heart.

May God's love fill us so we feel like we may burst. i'd burst for God. or i'd sure be willing to try.