Tears

So my family is in the midst of prayer. My body can't handle breaking down, but my heart is broken for the Sorviks. Tomorrow, er, today, at 1230 to 100 we are praying that josh's back is restored and that God heals him, and that there's no surgery needed, and that he can walk again.

Tonight i was finally able to cry to God. It took a fantastic roommate and a sad sad movie, but it felt so good to be so raw. 

Jesus' power and love have been so overwhelming in a way that i cannot and will not describe. I cannot wait to go Home. I know heaven feels bajillion times more amazing then here, but even if i had this feeling right now, forever, i would take it, knowing it was the love of my Savior. No questions asked. ok, maybe some, but only because i have so many.

Sleep evades me while i write this... but another prayer of mine is that we are able to share josh's story with others. to be able to go to people and say he is HEALED! my heart leaps in joy in the prospects of sharing God's love. May He keep this emotion close to my heart.

May God's love fill us so we feel like we may burst. i'd burst for God. or i'd sure be willing to try.

Change

So i am not a grammar nazi by any means, but a sentence i wrote is true, but bothers me...

"i am not as big of a fan of change as i thought i was..." theres something wrong with it... oh well...

so i was at the last party my friends will have...its a tradition thing, and it was really sad to be the "old" outsider... things change, and i think this is the first of many times i now dont want to graduate... i truly do, however, i dont want my family to move away... its just a sense of mourning, of what used to be... 

Spring Break thus far...

So this is my final spring break as a "student-student"... and i must say, it's been swell, but nothing out-of-this-world fantastic like a particular sister of mine who is on the beach in Cancun right now... at least i dont have sunburn...

so i started out by calling a dear friend, bethie, who lives an hr away, and got to hang out with her for the afternoon-- a b-e-a-utiful day, and we went shopping (ugh- more money spent- but it was worth it) and i got some bril ideas on decorating and being more thrifty! yay! we got to catch up which is wonderful too!!

i went home to the cities for a day, and met up with another friend, saw the neighbors and their gigantor baby... he's ridiculously cute, but a GIANT baby! (and saw their SEVEN other children...)

and now i'm at work! it's been quiet, which i love... oh, i also got those stinkin' taxes done! hurray!! now, i just have to wait for my return... ahhh... 

i found a free sewing machine from my grampa, and i'm super excited to get it, so i can start creating some masterpieces... oooor just making a big ol' mess :)

the sun is out, and the Lord is movin' i'd say it's been pretty awesome