Happy birthday to me...

and another year already! i'm excited to see what happens this turn around the sun... (it's leap year this year)

Happy Thanksgiving everyone!

Miracles

Tonight i held a miracle in my arms.
He was supposed to not be here, but God had bigger plans.
And he was beautiful.

Ireland

In june, our class is taking a week trip to IRELAND! i am SO stoaked!

Recipes

so i decided to throw a few of my-created recipes on here...
they are super easy and easy clean up!

Honey Chicken w/ cinnamon

defrost any type of chicken
place chicken, 1/4 cup honey
2 tbs butter
cinnamon (optional)
nuts (optional)
into aluminum foil, cook at 350 for 20 mns or until meat is no longer pink

Fried Oven potatoes

slice potates very thin.
coat in veg oil (or your fav oil)
sprinkle with salt, garlic poweder etc
bake at 350 for 30 mns or until crispy

modivation!

uh oh.
and it's almost 1 am... wooooooo

Advice

so i have a question primarily for those who have gone thru this
when do you get to the point of friends being more than that? and what do you do about it?
how do you know?
i miss you.

My head!

so i got *maybe* my first concussion tonight... i took a 50 mph soccer ball to the head... it hurt and still does...
but i guess it looked cool, and if a sweet bruise happens its almost worth it. it'd be worth it if we won....

Baptism

Today i was baptized.
it was so great to take a step forward literally to acknowledge my sacrifice to the Lord
congrats to brandon for taking that step and the others at first service as well!!

Turning over a new leaf.

well, besides Christmas, this time of year is full of anticipation and nerves. school starts again.
i really have no emotion pro or con for it.
i can so live w/ that

Bright Red Glasses

masks in general, hide things. they cover reality, fakeness, etc... but not all masks do that... they create confidence, and sometimes, they can create a better sense of self, and add to features already present, and draw them out.

Beauty from Pain

Pain leads to alot of things. anger, depression, so many negative things... but if you have God in your life, you can move past the negative things... beauty, life, clarity, so many things that are good. you just have to ask God to reveal it for you, because it is one of the hardest things to look for on your own.

Today, although nothing super exciting, was a great day. i realized that my good moods are me, recieving Joy from the Lord. no pills to make me down, no sadness, it was God. and me. and that, was reaaaaaally cool.

His Blood can wash us clean

Shallow capacity is bearing all I see, and I know It's disease, it's loss, it's death knocking at my door
I click these thoughts to something else, something more.
I'm so blue, you're so blue.

Detached harmonies, all the airways scream dissonance And we know of broken life, broken homes,
Broken hearts and broken bones, Recycling the paper of a crying world's suicide note and
We're so blue, so blue.

See the world spinning round A sucking hole that souls go down
Embrace the sorrow of today because repentance finds a way
Only His blood can heal our wounds Only His blood can heal our wounds
And if repentance finds a way, what's left today to be.….blue?

A final symphony, The precipice too close, you're scaring me -- back away
Sin is real, it doesn't feel, It always, only always, steals.
Run to the cross the only joy that's real.
-Downhere, So Blue

Prophesies

Prophesies are odd things. You want to believe them, becuase they are the words from God thru someone else, but when you think you know how it's to come, it's painful, and how do you tell others? Will they believe you, or will they understand? Only God does. That at least is very reassuring.

Home on the range

Home on the range. Like a stove. Scrambled eggs, hashbrowns, a big old mess. Moving, settling, adjusting and changes. It's always a little different each time. Funny, I never thought I'd be moving and settling this much, but it's really, a growing chance. Except I have a sneaking suspicion that I wont really know the growth until later.

Rain rain go away.

Raining all week has given me some time to think. Rain can be happy, it can be sad, much like us. It can feel cozy, or irritated, again, much like us. But the rain always changes, it's never the same. You can judge that the current rain was just like the last. But you would be wrong. The constant changes leave us feeling lost sometimes, but it always works out. Usually becuase you need a good cloud, and a great place to land. The rain can pool up and not miss it's cloud, but it usually hits ground. Soft and soakable, or hard and unforgiving. But as small as the rain can be, it usually isnt unnoticed. The impact, either small or large, is still there.

Growing Up

Growing up is a tricky tricky thing. I think as a child I felt being adult would be easy, since I would have practice at problems. Well, as much as I love being older, it doesn't get easier, but I just need to remember that it doesn't have to be harder.

The title of my blog is based of of 2 Corinthians 12:9. His grace is sufficient for me. His power perfected in weakness.
These words help me, calm me down, bring my worldly focus back to God.