Turning over a new leaf.

well, besides Christmas, this time of year is full of anticipation and nerves. school starts again.
i really have no emotion pro or con for it.
i can so live w/ that

Bright Red Glasses

masks in general, hide things. they cover reality, fakeness, etc... but not all masks do that... they create confidence, and sometimes, they can create a better sense of self, and add to features already present, and draw them out.

Beauty from Pain

Pain leads to alot of things. anger, depression, so many negative things... but if you have God in your life, you can move past the negative things... beauty, life, clarity, so many things that are good. you just have to ask God to reveal it for you, because it is one of the hardest things to look for on your own.

Today, although nothing super exciting, was a great day. i realized that my good moods are me, recieving Joy from the Lord. no pills to make me down, no sadness, it was God. and me. and that, was reaaaaaally cool.

His Blood can wash us clean

Shallow capacity is bearing all I see, and I know It's disease, it's loss, it's death knocking at my door
I click these thoughts to something else, something more.
I'm so blue, you're so blue.

Detached harmonies, all the airways scream dissonance And we know of broken life, broken homes,
Broken hearts and broken bones, Recycling the paper of a crying world's suicide note and
We're so blue, so blue.

See the world spinning round A sucking hole that souls go down
Embrace the sorrow of today because repentance finds a way
Only His blood can heal our wounds Only His blood can heal our wounds
And if repentance finds a way, what's left today to be.….blue?

A final symphony, The precipice too close, you're scaring me -- back away
Sin is real, it doesn't feel, It always, only always, steals.
Run to the cross the only joy that's real.
-Downhere, So Blue

Prophesies

Prophesies are odd things. You want to believe them, becuase they are the words from God thru someone else, but when you think you know how it's to come, it's painful, and how do you tell others? Will they believe you, or will they understand? Only God does. That at least is very reassuring.